Teeheehee. So happy! Yesterday went to meet hubby at cineleisure, although we had a big quarrel ytd which made my cry like fuck but still hubby made me happy when i met him. =D Went to eat at kobayashi, the omelette noodle is very yummy but after eating like around half, you will feel like vomitting! haha. Got scolded by hubby because i didnt eat finish my noodles but yet i went to buy lotsa gummies! Haha.. I saw two nice tops from blossom yesterday and IM GONNA GET IT! =)

Hmms, just read finish all my previous posts and i have been thinking, maybe i really have over-reacted or i was too sensitive. Actually, i have focused too much on hubby`s bad points, whenever i type about his bad points, i can really type ALOT but whenever i talk about his good points, its very minimal. Have also just been thinking, there was once when i scolded hubby just because he didnt give send me many msges that day but the truth was because he was buying something for me. When he passed it to me the next morning, i was feeling so guilty for scolding him. He bought me 'Ralph Lauren' perfume, a perfume i aim at for very long le. I really feel very self-centred, he might not msg me alot this few days but yet i can make a big fuss out of it, why cant i think that he is just too busy? i have realised that whenever he takes very long to reply my msg, my mind would start to drift, thinking that he doenst want me anymore. He always tells me over and over again to trust that he loves me but yet i feel that he doesnt love me anymore just because his msges and calls gets lesser and i always feel that its okay for me to anyhow think because of the fact that he has left me once and before he left me, he totally gave me the cold shoulder and with just a msg in friendster, we were over and I ALWAYS FEEL ITS OKAY FOR ME TO FEEL THIS WAY but now thinking about it, i have really never cared about hubby much. I always think that im a lousy GF but its okay because he is a lousier bf. Come to think of it, from the time we patched til now, it has been 8+ months le, but he still hasnt done anything behind my back nor has he ever let me down before. In fact, IM the one that is lousy, i always want him to be the best, treat me very good but he has NEVER asked me for anything except to change my attitude but still, i havent changed my attitude at all. Hais, fuck it. x(

Hubby i love you. You cant leave me alrights? I know i have been a lousy GF. You`re not that bad afterall. Whenever you make me sad, you`ll make up for it. But whenever i make you angry or sad, i`ll never take the initiative to say sorry or hold your hands and i still die die want face when its me in the wrong. Laogong, as i`ve alrdy called you MY laogong, and you also call YOUR laopo le, i really hope we can be tgt til we officially get married. Teeheehee.. cannot leave me okay laogong? I love you lots! Muacks. x)